A BOTTLE FULL OF EMOTIONS

I have so far come across 4 different people in my life.

First are the kind who like to talk about what is happening in their lives openly without giving it a second thought, second are those who do not openly tell people what they are feeling but in some way or the other make it very evident that there  is a lot going on in their lives, third are those who do not like sharing and prefer keeping every thought and every feeling to themselves and lastly are those who feel absolutely nothing….or at least they pretend not to but are dying slowly from within because of all the pain that is eating them.

 I think I belong to the fourth category. I may not be that old or experienced to say that I have lived and seen almost everything but I can tell for sure that I have lived through a lot. Most of them happy and some sad.

Have u ever found yourself in a situation where you say or do something to someone really close to your heart but you never meant for it to happen?  In a way it is your brain and heart telling you that they cannot store or bottle up more emotions for you and it is time you empty them and rid them of all the guilt and worry so that they can start filling them all over again. Although most of us don’t  react at the moment we felt bad, thinking that it was just a phase and that you are just going to “try and forget” it or you are going to outgrow that particular incident ……….we all know it never happens. The incident may be in the back of your mind but the memory is easily triggered by maybe revisiting the same place or arguing with the same person. And there is nothing that you can really do to get rid of this feeling. We can however tell the person responsible for all our problems how feel and I’m sure there are many such people to whom we cannot talk about how we feel because we fear getting ridiculed or losing them. In that case according to me its best you keep it within you or start writing it down in a piece of paper and once you've read what you have written- burn it. At first I thought the idea was just stupid and although it cannot completely rid u of that horrible feeling it makes you feel so much lighter from within.

Bottling up all our emotions may be harmful but telling out everything in the open without having any boundaries can be very harmful as well. Who knows someday someone may use it against you. You can call me evil but I am a kind that never forgets anything that you have said or done to make me feel bad and although I seem like I've recovered from it, some day when you try and hurt me again I am going to remind you of all that you have done in the past.

There are many ways of dealing with situations like these or with these emotions and everyone has a different ways of coping and those who do not tend to their unsaid emotions tend to go down a deep rabbit hole of depression and stress and find it very hard to find a way back home.

Isn't it funny....the things we haven't thought about in years still have the ability to make us cry?